my vacation

haha,... so long i din update u , bloggie..
fellin sad????
well, dont be..
cz i'm just a little buzy doin smth else...
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
not funny...

last month, i went to bali wif my family... it's quite a vacation...
most of da ppl there are poor so u cant find much shopping malls or cafe there.
some of da lu you jin dian are pretty some are wel... kinda... ..... ....
the view i like most is a .. erm.. somekind of a hidden lake in the mountains..
wow.. it's really beautiful.. like smth out of tis world..
i went to the beach and it's not that pretty as it sounds..
from the bright side, there's a lotta water games..
too bad i din get a chance to play it..
haha..
my mum bought clothes at one of the only two shopping mall there..
i've got a dress i've wanted..
besides that , i've bought my friends some souviners..

after i left bali , i went to Kuching . i lived in the 360 express, the hotel has a lotta interial designs so it's really cool.. the tv even have astro and disney chanel!!!!!!!!
i've also played the computer which is avaliable there ..
haha. so thats my vacation.. not bad huh??!!
haha..

thank god

thank god!!!!!!
today ive tried to cuan fu yin to my fren
actually i've a little nervous at first as this is the first time i did tis kind of thing .. but then
wif the help of my to frens,
the frens i cuan fu yin to accept to belive in jesus..
thanf god..
we asked her to prayed at home as she's too shy (or too scared) to do tat in school...
may god help her and may she continue to be like tat forever..
may b when i've the time, i'll invited her to church..
theks god!!!
xp

oh man!!!! today i'm soooo happy... i saw your blog.. thx to cass.
your english's kinda good... and you're sooo damn cute!!!
i left a comment there...
o man... i 'm so happy..
and natz...
sometines, we need to learn how to let go..
so jia you la everyone..
in everyting that u guys're doin
and may today b a happie day to u
just like hoe it did to me

lastly may god bless eu..
happy always.. xp

COLD

tonite's cold nite... my feet are freezing!!!!!!!!!
i went for tuition.. and there's where my feet started to freez..
and tat remindes me of your cold cold heart.
why should u be like tat? y don ya change?
y must u lie to me?? y must u pretended to b perfect?
u ca me sooo much better than how u're now..
so so much better..
how many girl's hearts have you played?
when'll u decided to stop??
and try
just try
to be a better you.
u can mke it.. i noe u can.
i hope someday u'll realise
wat a mess u've made..

happy...

i'm happy...
wat a happie day!!

dissapointed..

Have you ever tried so hard to get smth
and it turn out just the opposite from what you expected?
you'll never know or understand how it feel..
It's the worst feeling ever.

do you hav a knife?
or smth sharp?
i felt like dying now
to escape from this disaster
why?
MUSTthis happen to me?
why?
MUST i always be the one to be the failure?

i want to quit
why can't i just be who i wanna be?
doing all the things i like
breaking the rules
don't need to care about anything..

what's the point from continuing?
i've failed,
FAILED from every thingthat i've been tryon to get...
should i cry?
even if i cried
it can't change anything..

friends tried to comfort me,
but it just remind me of how stupid i am
" maybe u'll do good in other subject" they said..
BUT
they never noe...

It's like a curse..
one which can't be reversed
It's like a sickness
one that CAN'T be cure
maybe i'll be like this forever,
TOO dissapointed and tired to get up

i've gave up
from every thing i've ever wanted..
i've learned my lesson
i'll not made the same mistake again.

i've failed my family
my friends and myself..
i tried to cheer up,
but how could i?
when i'm the one who did the mess..

MAYBE GOD want this to happen
MAYBE this 's a test for me..
MAYBE i should get up..
BUT not now..
not in this test..
i;ve done my best
WHY should i care the rest?

so,
maybe i'll let time do the work
i WONT ALLOW this to happen again..
sometimes...
there're things we NEED to LEARN to LET GO..
to get smth better in return
BECAUSE GOD will ALWAYS GIVES US THE BEST..



* IT TURN OUT TO BETTER INTHE END

Going insane!!!!!!!!!!!

i've been cryin a lot lately... i don no y... its been a lot of things.. no one noes bout the things tat's bugging me.. i don wanna talk bout it either.. i hate crying... i scared of it ... honestly.. i just wanna b free.. like how i used to b... i'm sooooooooooo mixed up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kept thinking the thing that i don wanna think bout.... somebody pls help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GIULTY

haiz... i felt like i'm a monster!!!!!!!!!!!!! not the kind that kill ppl but i'm the ones who hurt ppl's feeling.. i've hurt a lot ppl's feeling.. i've hurt them when i'm hyper.. when i'm angry... haiz.. how can i be soooooooooooooooooo bad?! when can i change my attitude??? i don noe.. today, we went shopping.. i left jin jeak-my bbbf alone... and went off with my b class's frens... after a while, guilt washed through me.. i wanted to apolagize, make it up to her... but she already went home... want can i do? i text her and tell her i'm sorry, she told me that she ain't angry wif me..but dissapointed instead.. i tried to show her how guilty i felt but that just made her angrier... she told me to shutup... but i just could'nt.. how can i shut up when i already felt soooo bad???? so i went home... still moody... i just hate to fell guilty... i would do anything just to make it go away!!!!!!!! i just want to go back in time, change the mistake tat i did.. so everything would b ok... so, i wrote her a music, i told her tat... but she still din reply...

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hihi.. i'm going to sibuti.. prettyborin ha... well... actually i've nothin ta write.. bb muahahahahahahahahaahahahhaahah. oh ya!and happy belated b'day too jackie..

whou!!!!!!!!!!!!! wat a day!

haiz.... so tired... din think tat it'll be kinda hard to teach ppl dancing.. we practice for more than 1 hour... we finally made it... actually we change a little... actually can say all of the steps me and tina planned... well.. i'd wish that they'll remember all the steps!!!!!!!!!!!!! jia you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hihi

hi guys... so long din write oledi... no time ba... haiz.. schoolwork and everything.. driving me pretty crazy... thx god forlettin me get a kinda good result.... i thought this semester i'm gonna die...hahaha gtgnow.. bb

Hello everyone ...

yo ,
obviously I am a newbie at blogging world ..
so , I aint got no idea on what to blog..
so ,thats that , lets leave it here for now ...

I promise that I will return for more updates ...
so , sit back , relax , and stay tuned for my blog...

but remember , you know what to do , u know what to say , but u'll dont know when u'll be the big butt's prey .

thanks very much ,

good bye , good night , and God Bless America.....
^^